Esther 4:14

"For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father's family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to royal position for such a time as this?" (Esther 4:14)

This morning, I sat down with my homemade vanilla latte and my Bible, not sure what I was going to read. My Bible fell open to this verse (Normally it falls open in Isaiah, I might add), and the words pierced me.

If you decide to stay silent, then someone else will speak truth. But you were placed where you are for a reason.

Or, as my heart heard,

If you don't do what I (God) have put you in your position to do, I'll just find someone else who will.

Ouch.

It got me thinking about where I am placed. The situations I have opportunities to speak into. They're multiplying this semester. People that I have not searched out that have come to me and opened the door for me to speak. People with hard questions, in hard situations, with hard answers.

It's just hard.

Who am I to speak up? I'm only a child. I don't have the answers. I don't know how to reach into these situations and bring hope? Why even choose me?

But the Lord said to me, "Do not say, 'I am only a child.' You must go to everyone I send you to and say whatever I commands you. Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you and will rescue you." declares the Lord. Then the Lord reached out his hand and touched my mouth and said to me, "Now, I have put my words in your mouth." (Jeremiah 1:7-9)

This verse gives me so much courage. It reminds me that it is not me speaking into the lives of those who open doors for me, but that it is the Spirit speaking through me.

I am only his candle. Have your way in me.